May 2009
19 posts
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Today was a series of misfortune. Maryann, Kasey, and I packed all our stuff and went to Ko’olina but the guy told us that parking was full so we couldn’t go in. Then we told him we were only getting dropped off and he still wouldn’t let us go. How rude. We ended up going to Water Park formally known as Wet n’ Wild (gag), because there was no where else we could go in our...
the aftershock
Her: Do you miss me? Him: No. Her: Why not? Him: Because. I. Don’t. Her: Oh. Him: So, how’s life?
But as the rebuilding begins, the memory of you returns. Shaking the foundations, cracking the walls and spilling what’s left of the broken glass into the street.
Jealousy
adj. 1. Fearful or wary of being supplanted; apprehensive of losing affection or position. 2. Having to do with or arising from feelings of envy, apprehension, or bitterness. 3. Vigilant in guarding something.
the girls all look the same
i’m stocking up on shorts due to the fact that this heat is unbearable. wouldn’t you agree? today was okay, except i looked like a piece of bird crap. my math test was a-okay, while i’m pretty unsure about my japanese exam. probably got a b, as per usual. i went to target after school and the minute me and my dad pulled into the parking lot i felt out of place. it really does...
if somebody's got soul, you gotta make the move
today was fine, as always. i have a feeling may is just going to be another month. my dad’s being controlling as always and planning out my birthday party for me (which will be in june) such as, the restaurant, who’s coming, what kind of dessert i’m getting, etc. for some reason i really just don’t feel in a party mood and i haven’t for the past couple of years. all i...
Hmph
thnks.
What I mean by “i can never be fair to you” is that, no matter how much i like you it won’t matter because i’m always going to be thinking about someone else most of the time. i wouldn’t want to go out with someone who likes me, but also likes another person and spends 95% of the time thinking about them. that’s what i mean. it wouldn’t be right...
Lost cause
Dan: And you left him, just like that? Alice: It’s the only way to leave. “I don’t love you anymore. Goodbye.” Dan: Supposing you do still love them? Alice: You don’t leave.
something simple
it was a monday, after school.
i was walking down the hill by mr.mumaw’s class and you were standing outside his door with tyler. all of a sudden i hear someone yell out “bye emi!” and at first i wasn’t sure who said it, but there you were smiling and i knew. i turned around and yelled “bye” back with this huge grin on my face and i waved. i was happy.
This is how it went
I came home yesterday at around 3:30 and cleaned my room. Then, I remembered I wanted to watch Gossip Girl (Southern Gentlemen Prefer Blondes, which is the only episode I’ve missed) and eat toaster strudle while lying in bed. I ended up not being able to find the episode online so I had to go on iTunes and pay $2.99 for it. While it was downloading I climbed into bed thinking I’ll just...
Dear may,
please be good to me.
p.s. i can’t wait to turn 15.
“So I am here to take back everything you’ve ever taken from me.”
a thought
it’s like everyday someone new is getting mad at me. “sorry” just isn’t what it used to be. i’m having the hardest time trusting people and i don’t want to cooperate with anyone. if you don’t attempt to have a fucking good conversation with me then don’t even expect me to try in return. because i won’t.
because
i’m a jealous wreck and i want to know what it’s like to feel that way.
i (don't) care
AznMilestone: EMI
AznMilestone: I AM SO BORED
lovely3mi: so you only talk to me when you're really bored ):
AznMilestone: lol
AznMilestone: K nvm I'm not bored :P
AznMilestone: What's up?
lovely3mi: kay. moa better.
lovely3mi: i just got home.
lovely3mi: i stink.
starting now
this is where I bite my tounge.
i can make you ice cream, we could be a sweet team
i just really hope my physical doesn’t take too long on saturday and mary ann can go out. i want to eat at genki with her and then go to waikele to do some shopping. i need jeans, real bad. and i haven’t been to old navy in what seems like forever. i want a ice-tea lemonade from starbucks, sweet, passion flavored, and i want to ride on the trolley. i hope it’s just the two of us,...
“we’re all as sleek as the words we speak”
April 2009
75 posts
RNJ
Well, do not swear. Although I joy in thee, I have no joy of this contract to-night. It is too rash, too unadvis’d, too sudden; Too like the lightening, which doth cease to be Ere one can say ‘It lightens.’ Sweet, good night! This bud of love, by summer’s ripening breath, May prove a beauteous flower when next we meet.
Act 2: 122-128
Young men’s love then lies Not...
“I can’t justify looking for someone else to love knowing you exist. If I was...”
– Boys meets love
Don't you agree?
nicoleperalta:
The people that you once knew, now treat you as if they never knew you. It makes sense. You pass by old friends during passing or even friends you barely talk to and they just pass you by as if you were just another person in their way of getting to class; as if you weren’t even there. Yeah, that’s just upsetting.
Boy,
You are what keeps me going and what keeps me hurting at the same time.
- Girl.
I can't feel it yet
but i know you made my skin thicker.
“Making trouble to you is fun because 100% of the time i feel that it...”
– Micah Tang (is a douche)
I think i made it a game to play your game
I’ve been avoiding tumblr these last few days, writing, I mean. There are things I want to explain and say on here, but I don’t know how to say them and so, I just haven’t. I think I’ll try this time.
I’m sorry Nick, that it doesn’t really seem like I care about the things you do. I just have a hard time showing interest about something through a text message....
you almost always pick the best time to drop the worst lines you almost made me cry again this time another false alarm, red flashing lights well this time, i’m not going to watch myself die
- Buried Myself Alive: The Used
- M,
These past two years I’ve told myself that if you truly cared about me, you would do something about it. You never did. And I constantly remind myself if you really wanted to talk, you would have made an effort by now.
How did we become so distant? Does this make you unhappy at all? I miss your real smile, how you used to look at me… please come back soon.
I think I’ll stop waiting now....
Here’s much to do with hate, but more with love. Why then, O brawling love, O loving hate, O anything, of nothing first created! O heavy lightness, serious vanity, Misshapen chaos of well-seeming forms, Feather of lead, bright smoke, cold fire, sick health, Still-waking sleep, that is not what it is! This love feel I, that feel no love in this. Dost thou not laugh?
ACT 1: 153-161
I don't really care
for explaining what happens everyday. because really, my life is a routine and nothing new ever occurs. i enjoy reading romeo and juliet in english, a story of unrequited love. i like how mrs.ochiae makes us act out the scenes with “feeling” and i think eric does a pretty good job, even though he probably hates it. i wouldn’t mind being juliet on friday, but of course, i’m...
As per usual
nicoleperaltaART: What are you getting?
lovely3mi: i rank right after kelsey.
nicoleperaltaART: You're smart.
lovely3mi: haha no, i just do all my homework and pass the tests. ):
nicoleperaltaART: I don't.
nicoleperaltaART: ):
nicoleperaltaART: I'm a lazy being. I wish I wasn't. It's hard.
lovely3mi: haha yeah, i just do her work at home cause i don't know if you notice, but i don't do my classwork.
nicoleperaltaART: You sleep.
lovely3mi: x)
lovely3mi: how do you stay awake in that class?
nicoleperaltaART: Observe others.
lovely3mi: haha. like myself.
nicoleperaltaART: Yeah, haha.
nicoleperaltaART: You have a pattern.
nicoleperaltaART: You walk in, talk to the chick next to you, listen, attempt to work and then, sleep.
I'm just gonna be honest here
cause I ran out of clever things to say.
When the person you used to be died/disappeared, a huge part of me did as well. and I feel as though it’s never coming back. you’re never coming back.
NL
I know you care about me and somedays, I jut want to say heck with it and let us have chance, take a risk. I know a part of me likes you like that. I don’t know what always holds me back. I think I don’t want to mess up and then feel like I have to pick up the pieces because I’m scared that if something goes wrong they might not ever fit the same way. Well, together or not...
"Why do you even hold on?"
nicoleperalta:
I’ve been getting the same question and I have no answer. Well, I do now. So, why do I hold on to you? Why can’t I let go? I hold on because of those memories. I hold on because I feel like there’s still hope and that someday, you’ll feel the same. I hold on because when you fall and feel like there’s nobody there, I want to be that somebody to pick you up even though you weren’t...
I don't want to feel this way
i think about you, and i cry. i really don’t know what to do anymore. i think the worst way to miss someone, is to see them everyday, and know it’s not really them at all.
i’m verrrrrry satisfied with what i got on my report card. this quarter i totally slacked. i really thought i’d end up with a couple c’s and maybe even a d, but i actually got only a’s and...
Staring at the sun
you know it’s bad for you. people warn you to stop. you do it anyways, just because.
My family is having dinner at our house. My cousin promised me he would come this time and not bail out to hang with his friends. Once again, I’m stuck here at home at this lame family party by myself.
Strawberry pancakes
You were in my dreams this morning. I want you.
Realizations and stuff
i don’t want to leave this all behind. i’m not ready to move on, it’s something i’ve always wanted, yet it’s all fading away so quick. so quick. i don’t want this to be just my past. i want to feel that way again. i want it all to be permanent. i want you to be permanent. i don’t want to forget how to feel this way. i still want to remember how to love you. that’s what i’ve...
and the worst part about all of this, is you don’t care anymore…
Nothing gold can stay
No one talks to me on myspace. ever since i made that new account. sometimes i just want to just delete it. i have better things to do.
i came home yesterday and slept all the way until today, lunch time. i still feel tired. i indulged in a strawberry toaster strudle. i don’t have much homework because i actually focused in class and did all of it, for once. i think i’m going to watch...
I will tell no one for i will look like a fool.
This is the part...
where i turn into a cold hearted bitch and love every minute of it. at this rate, i will be a pro by next week. i don’t care.
“fuck you Lucy for defining my existence fuck you and your differences”
i liked today’s periods, besides science. he kept scolding me for things i wasn’t even doing and i didn’t have my notebook so i probably didn’t do too well...
“you make my stiff heart know that i am yours”
– odyssey
How do you sleep?!
too much on my mind. i don’t feel i can take anymore of this. i wish i could just wait around and take it all like i did with micah. but i suppose you guys are different, and micah actually cared some what about me. i never know with you. it seems like you pull me in on this rope and then you fuck me over, so i let go and free-fall, for what seems like the longest time. and during this whole...
The girl's no good, for me and you
i guess i knew all along that by talking to you again, i’d only be fooling myself and getting hopes up that should be alllll the way down.
i feel incredibly stupid. and sad.
If i'm still alive!
this outline is killinggggg me. i don’t think i have enough information so i’m forcing myself to read the rest of this boring book and then that means i’ll have to make more note cards. i hate this. i don’t think i’ll be getting more than 2 hours of sleep tonight. just thank god after tomorrow it’ll all be over. come on emi.
Today
i got to school at 7 and walked up to ochiae’s room to find out the work i missed yesterday. i got a -3 on the in class vw and i was surprised because i had a really hard time on it, but i guess it shouldn’t really matter cause i got a lot of help from chelsey. then chelsey came to meet me and we walked to the bathroom and that’s when i noticed that my nose was starting to peel...