perfect teeth

Today was a series of misfortune. Maryann, Kasey, and I packed all our stuff and went to Ko’olina but the guy told us that parking was full so we couldn’t go in. Then we told him we were only getting dropped off and he still wouldn’t let us go. How rude. We ended up going to Water Park formally known as Wet n’ Wild (gag), because there was no where else we could go in our bathing suits beside some other beach but they all suck. Water Park isn’t what I remember it to be. Everything got a lot smaller, I guess because I got bigger and they’re doing so much renovation. It’s so lame. I don’t think I’ll be going there again anytime soon, Hopefully next next week we can try and go to Ko’olina again.

Then me and my parents went to Bestbuy so we could look for a new laptop for my birthday/christmas present. My mom bought me a silver MacBook and herself a 40 inch flat screen. She said no more electronics for us in a looong time. Haha. That’s why I need to make a new tumblr account, cause the laptop I’m using now already has me logged in so I don’t need to type it out everytime I want to come on and I forgot my password and the new laptop won’t have it saved. ):

p.s. If I expected you to talk to me I wouldn’t have commented you and texted you yesterday. I would rather have you start the conversation and prove to me to me that you actually care so that I don’t feel like I’m interrupting, but no, I went against what I usually believe in and talked first. You were the one that wasn’t showing any interest in return. I tried.

the aftershock

Her: Do you miss me?
Him: No.
Her: Why not?
Him: Because. I. Don’t.
Her: Oh.
Him: So, how’s life?

But as the rebuilding begins, the memory of you returns. Shaking the foundations, cracking the walls and spilling what’s left of the broken glass into the street.

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Jealousy

adj.

1. Fearful or wary of being supplanted; apprehensive of losing affection or position.
2. Having to do with or arising from feelings of envy, apprehension, or bitterness.
3. Vigilant in guarding something.

the girls all look the same

i’m stocking up on shorts due to the fact that this heat is unbearable. wouldn’t you agree? today was okay, except i looked like a piece of bird crap. my math test was a-okay, while i’m pretty unsure about my japanese exam. probably got a b, as per usual. i went to target after school and the minute me and my dad pulled into the parking lot i felt out of place. it really does feel like you’re at the mainland. i bought these cute white shorts for the beach on saturday. tomorrow is a tuesday schedule which blows because i don’t have any of my good periods (4,6) and we have that stupid aloha assembly. please, prove to me this one won’t be a waste of time!

p.s. you look good in purple.

if somebody’s got soul, you gotta make the move

today was fine, as always. i have a feeling may is just going to be another month. my dad’s being controlling as always and planning out my birthday party for me (which will be in june) such as, the restaurant, who’s coming, what kind of dessert i’m getting, etc. for some reason i really just don’t feel in a party mood and i haven’t for the past couple of years. all i want is to be in bed watching gossip girl or maybe out with friends celebrating and having fun. that sounds ideal to me. i’ve been craving to ride the the shaka this week and i have no clue why. i know it seems so lame wanting to go to the water park and all, but i do miss it. i think i’ll go during summer! :D

my computer’s been getting a ton of pop-ups lately and i’ve had to restart it 3 times today. i have a feeling my laptop won’t be around much longer if i don’t send it in to get it fixed, but with school and all still going on, i need it. i really wish i would’ve taken my mom up on getting an imac for christmas, but nooo, i wanted this shitty ass blackberry which is currently frozen at the moment.

hey, you’re on aim… i have to study for my jap exam tomorrow.

make the moooove.

chace crawford. wow. :D

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Hmph

thnks.

What I mean by “i can never be fair to you” is that, no matter how much i like you it won’t matter because i’m always going to be thinking about someone else most of the time. i wouldn’t want to go out with someone who likes me, but also likes another person and spends 95% of the time thinking about them. that’s what i mean. it wouldn’t be right and i’m not the kind of person to do that. i’m sorry that you feel as if you wasted four months on me, but i could never say that about a person i genuinely liked. if they made me happy, then it was all worth it in my eyes. i know i made you some what happy over these past couple of months. you can hate me, you can hold a grudge against me, but i think i’m doing the right thing by not getting myself into something that i’m not 100% sure about. i’m sorry. you deserve someone stable anyways. i’m too wishy washy. i’m too afraid. that probably doesn’t help, but just saying.

i would never want to lose you, but it might be selfish of me to say that.

Lost cause

Dan: And you left him, just like that?
Alice: It’s the only way to leave. “I don’t love you anymore. Goodbye.”
Dan: Supposing you do still love them?
Alice: You don’t leave.

something simple

it was a monday, after school.

i was walking down the hill by mr.mumaw’s class and you were standing outside his door with tyler. all of a sudden i hear someone yell out “bye emi!” and at first i wasn’t sure who said it, but there you were smiling and i knew. i turned around and yelled “bye” back with this huge grin on my face and i waved. i was happy.

This is how it went

I came home yesterday at around 3:30 and cleaned my room. Then, I remembered I wanted to watch Gossip Girl (Southern Gentlemen Prefer Blondes, which is the only episode I’ve missed) and eat toaster strudle while lying in bed. I ended up not being able to find the episode online so I had to go on iTunes and pay $2.99 for it. While it was downloading I climbed into bed thinking I’ll just relax for a little while and the next thing you know, I had slept for 18 hours. And my Gossip Girl didn’t even finish downloading because of an error.

I hate myself.

Dear may,

please be good to me.

p.s. i can’t wait to turn 15.